HAPPY DEEPAVALI :)

well i guess i’m old enough to make decisions. anyway i always mention only after everything is done. as i feel that once i say, people will control or stop me from doing something. to me, time shouldnt be wasted and especially one shouldnt be wishy washy. we must always make used of what we have to achieve what we want. start doing something, action!!

HOLIDAY HOLIDAY CANNOT BE SICK !!
gonna spend it well though one week only !!!

love darlings.

feigning ignorance

over a minor issue, but it became nasty.

lend me your shoulders.
and, hug me tightly. 

:’(

eye on you.

hi von is sick.
fever, running nose, sore throat. i’ve slept for the whole day.
so i dont want to waste my one week holiday by staying at home to be sick!!

anyway i skipped school (AGAIN) ytd. and i had a wonderful times!
watched movie, blindness. fell asleep while watching.
please people dont watch this show.. i seriously think its a total waste of time!!
what a stupid blind show.

then met jel in town.
had supper.

this person said that i have gained weight. and not going to P me.
isiot!!!
errrrr but am i?? hahaha.

question: “what did number zero tell number eight?”
answer: “fat then fat la. still wear belt!”
HAHAHAHA!!

REST TIME!
BYE DUDE.

******

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MUMMY NOT HOME.
BROTHER NOT HOME.
DADDY NOT HOME.
VON NOT HOME.

SUPPER TIME !!!
BYEBYE STUPID IDIOT (ISIOT) !!

home and away.

everyone is busy. busy with anything I could think of.
and me? i am busy having tummyache, yes as usual.

i didnt go to school for the past two days because i have something very important to attend. i found it manageable but still i am afraid. i am thinking what if it was wrote out of topic and there were mistakes here and there. or didnt get the right answer. i had a very bad experience the previous time, so now.. nope cannot cannot!! von must always stay positive and happy like usual!!!

on another note, i have not been seeing you smile or laugh lately. its tough for you and seems like you’re facing it alone. i hate this feeling when i do not know how to console you. so by keeping quiet and stay by your side, i hope it helps. how i wish i could do something to help you too. loveyou!

lastly i am so happy that i am involved with voluntary work!

goodnight and sleep well, everybody.
love von.

lethargic.

no words could express the secret agony of my soul.
paralysed with fear.

sugary nights.

its tough to please everyone. thats why i’m being myself.
basically i dont have to tell anybody about anything.
unless i feel like sharing with you.
so dont think that you know me very well.
you’re just trying too hard.

17 October 2008, Friday Night

went for halloscream party in school.
it was fun and i have enjoyed myself!
we took many photos using many different camera. but i have zero photos with me.

18 October 2008, Saturday Night

i should start planning how to spend my one week holiday!

♥

so i’ve spent my weekend nights with shee-shi-shi-sha.
and slept at sixAM.
now i’ve horrible eye bags. i mean i’ve it long ago.
HEHEHEHE!

so nice. so sweet. so happy.

BYE LOVED ONES!

STUPID SCARY.

people are anticipating for a bickering to start.
well they can wait as long as they want
and they should also go catch a movie at the same time as
its really going to be a very very long time
before the bickering can start and thus enjoy waiting dudes.

on another note.
i have something really important for the next two weeks. 
so i am really scared.

BYE LOVELY!

seriously.

how to cheer a happy person when sad?

smiley face.

first and foremost.
was so bored that i created all these photos.

i like to spend time alone at home.
walking around from my room to the kitchen and then living room.
holding onto chocolate bars, yakult, sweets and potato chips.
munch munch munch.

and especially
on tired weekend i love to laze around the whole day.
watching tv programmes hugging tight my bolster lying dead on sofa.
and to cook my own lunch, peanuts noodles.

then on rainy day
i would leave the door opened, close my eyes and listen to classical music.
very relaxing.

life can be very simple.
life can be very happy too.

in this world, nobody is indispensable.

just like me.
for now, i already have all the things that i want in life.
my mummy, studies, friends.
most importantly, HAPPINESS!

oh yes.
i havent been eating well recently.
no appetite.

dont like hor fun.
dont like sugar.
dont like sweets.
dont like vegetable.
dont like fish.
dont like eating.
DONT WANT TO EAT!

she is my sweetheart.
i share with her basically everything.
LOVE LOVE LOVE.
and now i guess i need to do something for her too.

anyway she is going bintan next week without me.
i am so sad that she is away for three days.
i would love to go with her too but she said,
“nope! you cant go. i’m going to work not to play like your sun sun sea.”

worse still, andy wont be at home.
sigh.

who is going to accompany me throughout the night?

my short and sexy legs.
HAHAHA!

TASHAE.
my cute little cousin.

and some of my friend photos.

PINZIE.

JEL.

BUDDY.

KAZ.

RAJA.

NAS.

AMANDA.

ABEL.

SHAN.

lastly, i miss smg.

i miss those days when we spent times together.

goodbye babies.
love baby.

on cloud nine.

am wearing spectacles. so geeky.
okay anyway i have spent my friday, saturday and sunday wisely!
dance drink rest sleep eat sleep out play sit walk.

here you go..
i was looking through my korea pictures.

high on alcohol.
HUG KISS HUG KISS!

this much, how i feel.

when i say i dont care, doesnt mean i really dont care. doesnt mean i am not concerned. its because i have my limitation too. what i could say, i have repeated a lot of times. and i dont like to repeat myself. what else can i say? what else can i still do? i am direct and not good at words, therefore i am always uncertain whether any of you can take whatever i want to say. besides, the way i handle things are definitely different from everyone. so friends would be there for you all the times, but dont take them for granted. they need times for themselves too. i dont believe in complaining. i believe in getting work done. even if complain, you still need to do the works. so might as well dont waste the time and get work done. i understand that by complaining can make one feels better. but how long can you complain? furthermore, the more u complain the more you’re angry. so why make yourselves so miserable??

all i could, is this much.

and i want to pick seashell too.

i love to go to the beach.
to lie down on the sand under the warmth of the sunshine.
swim deep into the sea. and the breeze at the shore in the evening.

i am as red as lobster now.
and not going to get anymore darker.
seriously.

beside me. between us.
a sweet escape.
♥

MUMMY LOVE!

spent my weekend with mummy. fruitfully.
saturday vivo. sunday serangoon for swim.
LOVE LOVE!!

♥♥

 i miss brian. havent seen him for quite awhile.
wondering how is he like now. cuter? taller?
does he still remember me?
i really hope to see him soon!

♥

LALALALALA!

absence make the heart grow fonder.
i miss you! badly.

♥